Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Migraines and me....

cute photo huh?
Anyhoo, here I am. It is nearly 6am. I got up at 5 (yay) and made some bread dough. It is resting and at 6.30 I will shape it into 7 fougasse and bake it. The scent of bread baking will draw everybody out of their cosy beds....
The fougasse is for their school and kindy lunch, so they will have to settle for porridge..
I had a stunner of a migraine yesterday morning, the effects of which I am still feeling today. I did manage my run last night so that's a positive. However, as per usual with migraine after effects, I feel bright and jumpy this morning. Life seems shiny and new. (Maybe that's why I get them-make me appreciate life more..). The post migraine feeling is nearly like the 'pre-migraine' feeling: everything is too bright, I am too enthusiastic, life is too noisy...
Except of course, premigraine, I have big space's and shimmerings in my sight...blurrggh!
I had my singing lesson last night. I have a new song..(My funny valentine). It is very slow, therefore 'challenging', as every note has to sound umm..good. Yes...I have to sing every note well...how hard can it be! Anyhoo, singing is a joy and we are working on our end of year concert..well a concert for family and friends..so hopefully, there will be three people there, it's all a bit nerve wracking..(which is also part of the reason I like it..)
Well, Harry is out of bed which destroys my peace...why the hell can he not sleep till 6.50am like a normal 11 year old...
Im going to make another coffee...

Monday, July 20, 2009

We came, we saw, we will return....

Ummm....about that last post..ya know, the one where I was going to set a goal..now/today/this very moment...well I did not. But I read a book about it. I will do it though.
Anyhoo, about that holiday...it began with me cleaning the house so it wasn't so trashy to walk into on return. I vacuumed, washed, cleaned and polished floors, toilets, corners etc etc. So fun. Deane was at work, so the mama organised the packing, then the packing of the van. We decided to take the (unwarranted/unregistered) van because it is a full time four wheel drive, with very good tyres and the roads 'down south' were (in my head) full of black ice/ice snow/slush and other hazards especially designed to maim or kill my children. Also there is more room in the van...simple. What we did not realise, till on the road to Christchurch, at night, is the tail lights of the van do not work...at all. Hmmmm....I did not have many fingernails left.
We arrived in Christchurch and found our apartment, Orari which -as it turned out- was opposite the art gallery, (we did not find the time to actually get there??!!!??). The apartment was warm, tidy and with three bedrooms, enough space for us all. And as a bonus, we could walk every where so did not have to stress about the van being ticketed for hundreds and hundreds of moula.
Regarding the ANTARCTIC CENTER, of Christchurch. My opinion only so please disregard if you absolutely love it, it was a bit of a rip off...I guess because it caters to the tourist. We paid $140 to just enter...and although it was informative..for the kids...it seemed to be all about penguins. Little blue penguins actually....yep, they are sweet, it is fun to watch them being fed...and it's better than seeing them squashed on the road (usually near the 'beware of little blue penguins crossing' signs). We experienced an antarctic snow storm...(a very loud minute of storm), and a ride on a haggland antarctic truck thing. Deane and I went for a coffee with the short person while the kids kept lining up for more rides. We experienced an Antarctic photo..($35) and the Antarctic gift shop. We have done 'it' and wont need to go again.
I refuse to cook on holiday, so we ate out for breakfast, lunch and dinner. We have decided we love Indian food...even the fussys will at the very least eat the rice.
We only visited Deane's boat once.We waited in the car while he crawled through the monolith and came out dirty fifteen minutes later. We danced in the car.
We left Christchurch on Friday morning making our way down to Hamner Springs. The stunning scenery I wont even attempt to describe...it will just sound naf. Anyhoo, rolling tussock hills, snow capped mountains, blah blah blah. I spent my formative years in the wee wee town of Twizel, so I am very drawn to tussocky hills, snow capped mountains etc. I feel at home. I have never had the Hamner experience before, and I must say..I love the village...I was looking around for a house we could buy...schools the kids would go to etc. We spent quite a few hours of our time soaking our bods in those wonderful thermal pools. We were hamner tourists for a day and a half. We walked through the town, ate at the cafes and restaurants..oh..heres a free pointer...NEVER eat at a place called Jollie Jacks. Of course, you can go there if you want...I'm not one to tell ya what to do...but be prepared to wait..(nearly 2hours...). We would have gone...but they bought out food for one kid (overcooked), so we thought it was all going to happen...but that was just the teaser...it ended up about one (hungry) kid being given it's food (undercooked, overcooked...)per 20mins. Anyhoo, worst food encounter EVER!...

Did we complain?..Nup..(too tired, too late etc)...as good NZ'ers, we paid up (113) and walked out, never to return.

We drove up to the local ski field, well to within 5k of it anyway. We did not carry chains and the road was flippin scary. We did park up and the kids played in the snow. Never having experienced more than a patch of summer snow up on Whakapapa, they learnt a few things....one being, feet get cold, really cold when wearing canvas street shoes, with no socks. They learnt that snow is wet, and the old classic; don't eat yellow snow..(one of them, I wont mention who, peed in it..)
I want to move down south, I want to live amongst the rolling tussock, the clear skies, the crisp air....

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Christchurch...here we come...

My garmin strap is still in the land of the lost...my polar strap does not work with the garmin. I am going to keep looking, maybe 'spring' clean the house and it will turn up...NAAAAh!..it's midwinter after all.
I have been 'busy', doing not much really. School holidays go by in a blurr of children. We are taking the ferry over to Picton on Wednesday, and driving to ChristChurch. We are not exactly sure what we are going to do there, we just needed to get away. After spending 2 nights there we are going on to Hamner....(don't ask me why, we don't know...we are just going to arrive and do stuff..)
There's nothing like a road trip with 5 kids. It's so fun! The only thing I stress about is the drive...icy roads and other drivers. I also am worried about how the wee trip is going to impact on my training. (How the hell am I going to do my 27k run on Sunday when we will be driving, then ferrying, and home at 4.30? I can't just leave Deane to unpack and feed the kids....hmmmmm....or can I?!) I don't like packing or unpacking after a holiday , its the 135 steps that ruin the whole 'packing' the car thing.
I still have not sorted a concrete goal, (as per a few posts ago). I have a few sashaying around in my head, and I sort'a aim for them...but I really have to follow my own goal setting instructions...in fact..I will, dear readers, I will! Tomorow is NOT another day...today is the day! I will do it today...this is my goal for today..OMG! I am so excited....

Friday, July 10, 2009

searching.....for my garmin...

Where the hell is my garmin heart rate moniter strap? where could it be?...Im so annoyed!!! I need it today...where did i put it, did a cat eat it, did the kids use it for something weird? I hate it when things disappear off into that other place, ya know, the place where the 'other' socks go, kids undies often go there too, and teaspoons, hairbands, brushes, pens, pencils, and paintbrushes. Watches spend at least some time in the 'otherness'....oh yeah, and sunglasses...(but only really expensive sunglasses go to the other place, grungy ones stay with you forever.)
gotta go and look.
stay calm.

Sunday, July 5, 2009

goal setting...I live to run again...tomorow is another day...etc

Well, this pig of a flu thing had me in bed for two days, (in between taking kid to kindy, making dinner, being sports taxi etc). I had a 'relaxing' time (in my bed..). I read a book (sort of). The four year old felt the impulse to wave a bunny in my face, among other antics, to cheer me up. I am only just nearly over it and in fact may be okay to go for a slow small ish run tonight...( http://catherinedrew.wordpress.com ) It is mid winter, it is cold, and it is school holidays. Drew has spent the last two days lying on the couch with a fever, drinking panadol, sleeping and groaning. She smiled for the first time last night so she is on her way up. We can all only improve..(she says through hopeful gritted teeth..)
Bring on Summer! Next week, errrr, (so that's from tomorrow)..I am scheduled to run 65k. How I actually do it will be on my wordpress blog...yeah, I try to keep 'training' and 'family' separate.

Read on my patient smiling avid readers, now I am going to get all helpful and intelligent...ahem...(clears throat).
I am reading Transforming Communication, (leading edge professional and personal skills...by Richard Bolstad). What a freak'n fantastic book...apart from the obvious communication tools with a( NLP neuro linguistic programming) base, it delves into goal setting...which is a big thing for me.
I set goals, for example..having my studio built by err...Febuary this year..(has not happened), and here's another one; draw every day, (does not happen). I also paid my fee to put four paintings in the 'big Auckland art fair', but through disorganisation, did not make it in time.My latest goal of course is to run the Auckland marathon in November, (entered), run the Kepler 60k in December (am waitlisted for it), and run the Motatapu off road marathon in March 2010 (entered). They sound fabulous do they not?! Anyhoo, according to this book, (Read on my avids...make it a goal to finish reading this post..)....to set a successful goal I need to write down my specific goal..(we all know that huh?), but, the goal has to meet this criteria:
  • Sensory specific: describe exactly what you plan to see, hear, feel, do or say....specifically.
  • Positive:say what you do want, not what you don't want...
  • Ecological: ecology is the study of consequences. e.g what consequences will training for my goal(s) have on other parts of my life etc...make sure goal is appropriate
  • Choice increasing: opens doors....
  • Initiated by you: describe how you,not others, will act...'working out what you can actually do about a problem is a lot more fun than developing theories about what someone else should/might do.'
  • First step identified....(ummm...put on running shoes...)
  • Your resources identified: these could be, in my case, family helping out with chores, babysitters, energy, my personal trainer, inspiring books/blogs, people that have already done it...

After writing down all this stuff, the next step my friend Richard Bolstad says, is...tadaaaaa!.....planning. Gosh! Thats also a big one for me. I usually write the goal(s) down, (in 2 diarys, on my note board in bedroom, black board in kitchen, and notebooks, bits of serviettes, paper, scraps etc...oh yeah..and if I brain storm a particulary good goal in a random place with no paper, it will be transcribed on my trusty hand), and the planning part sort of gets lost in the flying paper. However, Rick babe says;

  1. Write down what prevents you having the things you want....(oookaaay...my head space? family commitments, pure gutlessness???)....You've gotta work out what stops you from achieving your goal..be specific.
  2. List the resources you can use to achieve this goal..
  3. Brainstorm possible actions.i.e, think up possible action's to use these resources...(ummm, Kids, clean the house, Deane make dinner, I'm going for a 2 hour run..)...anyway, brainstorming means any idea is a good idea-it does not need to be critiqued.
  4. Choose which actions you will take. This is the final stage of planning..narorw down your list of possible actions and ask for each one; 'have I got the resources to do this?', does it get me closer to the goal I wrote down?'.
  5. When you know which actions to take, list them in the order in which you will act. Find a small part of the goal you can do today. Today is the day to start...(O.M.G!....panic..)

He also says to 'congratulate yourself each time you do one small step on the list/plan. This will add to your confidence.

Dont ya' love it. Writing this down has given me a bit of a kick up the you-know-what. I will keep posting on how my goal doing is going.

Feelin' good....

Love ya...